Good morning, sweet ones.
I’m sneaking in a quiet moment, as Baby Snap is upstairs snuggling with Papa. (Or, more likely, kicking him in the face with his adorable baby feet.)
I left the “ambient ocean sounds” playing here in the kitchen, because, well, I like it.
Anyway, as I’ve been on break for the past month, I’ve done a bit of soul-searching. (And by ‘soul-searching’ I mean drinking iced coffee, reading Elton John’s autobiography, and wondering why in the fuck I don’t live in Helsinki.)
And so, I’ve decided it’s time for a re-evaluation.
Top to bottom.
No holding back.
Snap as she truly is.
. . .
SnapDragon’s Re-Evaluation of Her Life, Yo:
Jesus Christ. They weren’t lying: age is a cruel joke.
The cold, hard truth is that I’m overweight. Also, it’s probably worth noting that according to the textbook definition, I’ve been ‘overweight’ since the eighth grade. I’ve always had a thick body frame. I’m strong. And, I like to eat. I’m Petite curvy, shall we say?
Anyway, me and my metabolism aren’t getting any younger. So aside from running up and down our stairs roughly 14 times a day, Mama Snap’s gotta get movin’. Stat.
In my heart of hearts, I am An English Teacher.
For the past five years (!) I’ve worked behind-the-scenes at the university level, on programming that aims to support “under-served” high school students. And I don’t begrudge it. I’ve accomplished some important things, and have had some meaningful moments. I have also greatly appreciated a flexible schedule, and even more so now that I have an infant. But at the end of the day, I want my classroom back. My kids. My projects. My little utopia of fiction reading that occasionally houses a fist fight or two. You know: real life.
I will go back. Someday.
It’s probably no surprise that I don’t believe in anything divine. (Except for, say, Paul McCartney in 1969.) But I do, however, believe in the magic of art.
I love stories. (It’s why I became an English teacher.)
I love music. (I’m obsessed. I’ve been known to scowl at people for skipping a track on an album.)
I love painting, photography, and basically anything conjured through vision, time, and expertise.
So I will continue to dig. Bit by bit. Page by page. I will create.
Snap’s a work in progress, yo.
Aren’t we all?
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SnapDragon is a writer, artist, and the complete opposite of a know-it-all. (Most times.)
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